How to Survive a Blizzard, an Aching Heart, and Too Many Oatmeal Raisin Cookies

"Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got till it's gone." 
-Counting Crows, Big Yellow Taxi 

The Before 
Wake up, hate on my alarm for a moment, stretch my limbs, head to the gym, test my physical strength, hydrate with water, dehydrate with coffee, eat a bowl of oats, drag myself to class - to work - through homework, soup for dinner, cookies for dessert, tea before bed. 
Every hour of every day, I do not think, I only do.




The Moment
I see his jacket in my mind, the same jacket I hugged with my fingers at age 7. Plaid interior and a silky, tan exterior. An ol' golf cap. His crooked smile. The way he stood up for what he truly believed in, gosh, the way he did that. 

I remember all the hot, Arizona summers, hanging Christmas lights in a Thanksgiving Day monsoon. Cozy Christmas morning slippers. Shortbreads and English Breakfast tea in the morning, jelly candies (and more tea) at night. 

The way my knees gave out from under me when all of these memories flashed before my eyes at the sound of the spoken truth whispered into the phone. At that very moment, a blizzard wasn't the only thing that caused the world to stop in its tracks. 


There's a comfort in living every day, while aware that everyone you love is safe and sound, living their day too. How do you get over the moment you realize that someone is absent from your world, but still alive in your heart?


Acceptance
Wake up, hate on my alarm for a moment, stretch my limbs, head to the gym, test my physical and mental strength, hydrate with water, dehydrate with coffee, eat a bowl of oats, drag myself to class - to work - through homework, soup for dinner, cookies for dessert, tea before bed. 
Every hour of every day, think of those I love and cherish, because they give me the power to live and the strength to move forward.


"Let it slide  / Let your troubles fall behind you / Let it shine / Until you feel it all around you  / And I don't mind / If it's me you need to turn to / We'll get by / Its's the heart that really matters in the end."
-Rob Thomas, Little Wonders


Please remember that if you make these cookies for your England-raised grandfather, to scratch the Earth Balance, and always use butter in its truest form. Don't be stubborn - make sacrifices like these for your grandparents, be their friend. They will thank you for it, and you will thank yourself.

Oatmeal Raisin Cookies (Vegan)
Adapted from: cookiemadness
Yield: 1 dozen 

Ingredients:
  • 3/4 cup whole wheat pastry flour 
  • 1-1/2 cups rolled oats
  • 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 scant teaspoon salt 
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon 
  • 1/4 cup vegan butter (Earth Balance)
  • 1/2 cup organic brown sugar
  • 1/4 cup organic cane sugar 
  • 1/4 cup applesauce
  • 1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
  • 1/2 cup raisins (plump by soaking in hot water for 10 minutes or longer)
Method:
  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees and prepare a sheet pan with parchment paper or a silpat liner. 
  2. In a small bowl, combine the flour, oats, baking soda, salt, and cinnamon. 
  3. In a large bowl, use an electric mixer to cream the butter and sugars together. Then, add applesauce and vanilla extract to the creamed mixture and continue to beat. 
  4. Add the dry ingredients to the wet mixture and beat until until all the ingredients are well combined. Lastly, fold in the raisins. 
  5. Divide dough into 2 tablespoon rounds and place evenly on the lined sheet pan. Flatten mounds of cookie dough down with your palm.
  6. Bake for 10-12 minutes or until the bottoms and edges are golden. 

2 comments

  1. A beautiful tribute to your grandfather and your love for him!

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  2. A beautiful tribute to your grandfather and your love for him!

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